Okay. I know I fucked up. I realize that dropping classes, and giving importance to things besides school put me in this situation.
Here's the deal: To still be eligible for financial aid you have to either not drop or fail 67% of the classes you sign up for. I think adding and dropping before the refund date doesn't count. I realize I procrastinate. I know I can screw around, but when it comes down to it...god, I don't know. The classes I haven't dropped have all been high grades, and my record stands at 65%, which isn't much less. I know that doesn't matter, though. They're interested in students here. Not smart people who don't try too hard. So they decided to take away my financial aid, but you can write up an appeal to get it back. That's what I did. I provided a personal account of why I suffered when I did, signed and filled out all paperwork correctly, provided a letter from my dad, and even brought in education plans from a school counselor and myself. They told me that they would review it on Tuesday, and I would know early that day. Well, they let me know, and it looks like they're denying my appeal. I can still fight it, though. I need this money. I need my classes paid for, and I need books. I need to pay off my debts, and I need food and cigarettes and AGH!!! DAMN!!! Shit. Well...that's it. An advisor just told me that the people who reviewed my appeal were the Appeals Committee. Now, the only people I have left to beg and plead are the Appeals Council. I can write them a letter asking them to re-review the Committee's decision, plus I can actually meet with the council personally. I wasn't allowed to meet with the committee, so I'm more optimistic. I can bring in more stuff to support my claim, and I can talk my way out of most anything...well, I've always thought so. Maybe I'm giving myself too much credit. Either way, we'll see how it works. I'm really upset, both at myself and at Pima, but far less angry at them. It wasn't really their fault. It was mine. I have just had the hardest fucking time lately, and there's more I could have done, but there was also many things out of my control.
I just submitted a letter to the council. Here's hoping. Updates later!
So it has been another draining time in Tucson, folks! Mainly battling with the school's financial aid department. THAT'S NOTHING NEW. Seriously. They do not like giving money to students who have ear--um...been approved for it. Ahem. Anyways...I just really hate having endless fights with them for what is, in essence, MY MONEY. I was given it, therefore it is mine. FUCK. GAH! PLEH!!
Christ. Okay. Things are looking up today. I think we're finally going to settle it. HOPEFULLY. I am sitting in the office, and my appointment is at 3:30 (Post-meridian), so I decided to get some sorely needed blogging done in the meantime. If y'all are interested, there's a new poem up on my OTHER blog: http://kevinthewriter.blogspot.com
So there's a new gal in my life. Have I blogged about her here yet? I don't know. I'm too lazy to save this as a draft, go check, then come back and revise. So...we're just going to pretend like I haven't yet. Well, her name is Ellie, and she's pretty rad. Once again, a bit younger than me, but stately gentleman like myself prefer the hot, virile trophy girlfriend. Now that I've said something like that, let's move on. Ellie is awesome. That's all there is to it. Smart, gorgeous, full of energy, creative, weird, sarcastic, etc. All I could hope for.
So this is finally going to be my last semester at Pima. Don't judge me. I've come to terms with who I am. So there. I love working in the scene shop, and hanging out with all those crazy theater kids. That includes, but is not limited to myself B-T-W!
Everything else is rad. I'm playing through Dragon Age Origins right now, and it is awesome. All the fooferaw and tom foolery that Mass Effect and KOTOR had has been stripped away to a brand new, bare bones RPG-Adventure experience. I am in love. It's BioWare. How could I not be?
I am walking Ellie through FFVII. She's a natural. Or...as natural as one can be at an RPG. She gets it, is all I'm really trying to say here. So yeah.
If there's anything else, I will post another blog. CHECK OUT MY WRITING! That's it! Bye!
I really want to sell my scooter, but have had next to no luck. It's a 2005. Only 1,600 miles. It's in perfect condition, and I have even fixed a belt and the muffler recently. It's top notch! I'm asking $1,000 for it. It's a Chinese model, a Qian Jiyang RX8. Please ask around. Thank you!
I don't know how long it has been since I have posted here, and I don't much care to check. I want to write a huge deal here, but I honestly do not have the time right now. I have never been so busy...okay, it's been busier before, but not with every event being full of amazingness and awesome. I am getting paid to work in the theater dept at Pima. Right? I know. I know.
I am loving everyone in the dept, and am gearing up to try out for Cinderella. I hope I make it in!
Well, just everything is super amazing. I guess you'll have to be satisfied with that. Maybe you should call me so that you could hear more. We don't have to talk about The Matrix. We could talk of other things. Um...bands we like. Girls that have broken our hearts. Er...The Matrix.
SO I'm sitting here in the booth at Pima, and I'm going over my monologue. It's challenging, but exciting. I'm also working on a new campaign I am going to play with Tim, Lisa, Kevin and Wade. It's Star Wars D20. I want to add Jeff and Jason in as well. I have to remember to ask them about that. My campaign is going to be revisionist, and take place a bit after the events of KOTOR 2. I'm deciding to change events, and have a lot more Jedis survive. In this campaign, my characters will have to go on missions to find hidden or lost or potentially dead or captured Jedis, Padawans and Younglings. I hope they like it.
So...that's about it. There aren't too many other things to speak of. Still doing well in classes. Might get a job at the tech lab here. Um...yeah! K bye!
I have had the best freaking week ever! So I was chosen to do sound for Ramona Quimby. BTW I was super super sick when they held auditions, but I wish I could have been IN the play. Or in See How They Run. Either one. Anyways...I'm doing sound. The play is about 1 1/2 hours-2 hours maybe. I have 40 sound cues. Not really that bad. The best part is listening to the directors, designers, and tech (besides me) just yell at each other like they're full of hate! Tee-hee! Love theater! LOVE IT!! I've also been working in the tech shop as much as I possibly can. Every M/W, I get out at 2 at Downtown, drive to West, and work from 2:30-5/6-ish. T/Th I work 9-11:40, then from 1:30-2:30, then from 3:30-5/6-ish. Saturday it's all day! 9-5-ish! Okay. I say 9, but honestly...Sean and Todd and I mostly sit around from 9-10 drinking coffee and bullshitting, and then we finally get to work. Tech is amazing, and it also turns out I am really freaking good at it. Todd is the big boss. Todd sat down with me today, and here was our dialogue:
Todd: "We need to talk."
Me: "Oh shit. What did I screw up?"
Me: "Okay. Good. So then what's up, boss?"
Todd: "You are great at all this stuff. Not just great, but naturally gifted, Kevin. You could half-ass your whole life, and get by perfectly fine. Better even."
Todd: "But that means that you cannot be lazy. If you work better than average at normal, than you have to work twice as hard, and revolutionize the industry."
Me: "I don't know if I could do that."
Todd: "You very well could, actually. I need you to push and do everything double time, because it's rare that I get someone like you here, and I want it all at full blast."
Me: "I can do that for ya, boss!"
Todd: "I know you can. So here's what I need..."
Then he proceeded to put me in charge of like 3 projects, and closing up the whole department. I was so excited! I love doing this soooooo much! AAAAAAGGGGHHHHH!
Acting I is awesome as well. The class is a lot of fun, and everyone in it is super amazing. We all have so much fun during warm-ups, and our partner exercises are always amazing! We're practicing our first monologues now, and I am super nervous! I wanted to do a piece full of energy, then I decided to go sort of "Opposite-Me" and I chose a piece about a guy who has cancer, and is weak and angry. It's challenging, but that's what I love about it! Frank gives great direction, and I already feel like I'm growing as an actor.
Math sucks. The only cool part is the comics I draw during class with the girl (Ruth) who sits next to me. Hee-hee!!
Poetry is pretty cool. It's nice to have feedback and people to bounce ideas off of. The other people in my class are good writers, and I like their pieces for the most part. There are a few guys in the class who are kind of pretentious, but what are you going to do, right?
Besides that...I remember writing a lot of weird blogs on here over the summer, and before. I was lonely and struggling and going through a shitty time. Now I feel a lot better. Actually I feel worlds--nay--universes better! So anything that was weird, or pissed you off, or made you worry...it was all part of the process! Disregard it now! Please and thank you! A lot of that wondering and feeling I did never came to pass, so I've let it go! Being alone (but not lonely) is awesome. It really is now. Wasn't a while ago, but sooo is at this point. Okay. Awesome.
Also...I'm living with Tim and Lisa now. I love them so much. Tess, Kevin 1, and Wade are so rad too! We play video games and my room is sweet! Also...I'm getting a laptop. FREAK OUT!!!!
Okay. Times have been crazy-go-nuts! I was planning on getting my own studio apartment near the UofA area, but...Tim and Lisa's idiot fuck-head roomie decided to up and atom! So...I moved in to a room in their house so they wouldn't have to foreclose on the place. Best...decision...ever. I remember now why I love them so much. We play a lot of games, do karaoke, and just smoke and hang. Thessaly is now 10! I can't believe it! She's super smart, but pretty annoying sometimes. Love her anyways! So far we've watched seasons of Chuck, Dexter, The Office, and MOAR!! The Office is now in my top ten of shows. So amazing. More amazing than I ever thought it would be. The Office has inspired (directly) two new things in my life:
1) "That's what she said." I don't over-use it like a lot of assholes out there, but when I find an opening, I take it. That's what she said.
2) Pranks. I find I identify a lot with Jim, and he loves pranks. Well, so do I. It's just been a long time since I've lived with people that appreciate pranking, and pay back well. It's been amazing!
Tim and I have also started a little game. It's called "Hide the Hibbert", and has been oodles of fun! Tim had this little Dr. Hibbert (The Simpsons) action figure, and one day I put it on top of a picture frame outside his room. Tim found it, then put it in a pot hanging above the stove. After that, as they say, it was on! Great house game. Love it. LOVE IT!!
My poetry class is a little dry. Math is excruciating. However, I am also taking Acting I and Stagecraft, and they are the mostest of the mostest in fun and raditude! Seriously. If I'm not in class, I'm at the tech lab building sets, painting sets, erecting sets, etc...sets. Man! This semester is shaping up to be the BEST EVER!
Also...I haven't started yet, but should be taking a job as a counselor/instructor/tutor at a child care program through a few East side elementary schools. I'm seriously thinking of changing my major to Elementary Education. SERIOUSLY!!!
And also again...my new room is bad ass. I love it. It's the coldest room in the house, and it's quiet, and dark, and the way I have it set up just simply titillates me to no freaking end! Holla!
Anyways...I don't think there is much more to speak on. I guess I'm going to Shot in the Dark with Elizabeth Gildea tomorrow/today to read over A Midsummer Night's Dream in preparation for PCC putting it on. She wants Puck, and I want Oberon. We'll see how it pans out...
That's it now. Bye! Love you! Bye!
So child care is the most amazing job I have ever had. I got to meet the kids I should be working with today. Oh man. So awesome. I can't wait to start. That's really it. Sweet.
So I went to the Douglas State Fair this weekend. I went up Friday to Mary Morgan's house to meet up with her and Kara. We talked and had tea, then went to bed. The next day Betsy and Bobby arrived, and we all got ready! Ready for what? To float down the North Platte river! Yeah!
We loaded up the floaties into Bobby's truck and headed 3 miles up the river. It got cloudy, but we decided to go for it. It cleared up soon after we launched, so don't worry your pretty little heads. Okay? Okay. Anyways...we arrived right by Mary's house, as she lives right on the river. Sweet, right?
Then we cleaned up and sun-bathed and drank coffee and talked. After that, we went to the state fair to see a demolition derby. I had never been before, and I thought it was going to be stupid. Boy, was I wrong! As soon as I heard the first car revving up, something happened to me. My testosterone started pumping super hard, and I got really excited. We all picked cars for each bout, and cheered them and yelled and it was amazing. After that we retired to Mary's for board games and fun.
The next day Kara and Bobby took off early-ish. Mary, Betsy, and I went to get ice cream. It was delicious. Then we went and petted the rabbits, goats and cows! It was splendid.
Around 5 or 6 Betsy and I left Mary's place, and drove back to Cheyenne. We ate at my house, and hung out for a bit. She went home around midnight, and I crashed. Betsy is a ridiculously beautiful woman. That's all I have to say about that.
I'm coming back to Tucson in about a week. I am really excited to see everyone in AZ, and I'm so ready for school to start. I'm still going to be very sad to leave here. I am going to miss everyone so fucking much. Sigh...
So we had three kids leave today for the rest of the summer: Gage, Jvon, and Austin. They're all brothers. I suddenly realized I only have a week left working at the day camp, and I got really sad. I am going to miss those little knuckleheads so much! What an amazing job! Man!
Tomorrow I am going to go see the fabulous Mary Morgan with Bobby Wilson and Betsy Rae Mock. We are going to float on the lake behind Mary's house, have a BBQ, and go to the fair! So stoked!
I am getting new glasses finally! They're black-framed and very Buddy Holly/Elvis Costello-esque. I am excited!
Also, my new vehicle is almost within my grasp! Just a few more days! Whee!
No apartment yet in Tucson, but I am calling and faxing a bunch. Trying to get that shit done!
So ecstatic for new things! So sad for some things to end!